Do you too want to share stories of your personal crisis of...

 Situations where you wonder whether you were in the position of a victim or oppressor,

 It is to know and to tell ourselves that there are situations which are flux. It is to tell ourselves our firmness while trying not to judge others. It is that comfortable zone where you are not necessarily included in the category of the "object" of study.

But simply exist. Oh i desire.. long.. that zone.

Not that i never had such spaces
But these days,
I am bored of people who look into.
Bored of the researchers.

Suddenly...
 all eyes around seems to be
of those who want to know. ( it includes me as well, i am not outside this category)

They want to know.
Knowledge is such a vicious commodity that people do anything to acquire it.
I fear they might kill me
they are strangling me.
I got , in their persistent attempt, thoughtfully attacked.
There could be people and instances that suffered it from me, and i had a recent bad experience with a friend
I think,she raped; i am coming out of its trauma.
She raped many of my relationships,moments,and future.
Her gaze is what i fear of all those gazes in the patriarchal society i live with.