There was a turn
a utilitarian turn
after gaining spirit through that one
i never take courage to look at it again.
So once in that big choice
one turn is made
its always 'never to reach in the same juncture
and to take the same turn, for little choices.
One beig decision is, minusing
similar smaller ones always.

Too much of logic and too much of growth destroys, its about balance.
Its a bad thing that we dont have similar but slightly varying for different degrees of logic.
Its same as we dont have words for emotionally growing and being emotional, to get out of control be being emotional. for eveything we have the same word, emotional.